Well, here it is. January has arrived. If you couldn’t tell and live in Minnesota, just step outside. Above is a view from my frosted up window today. The bitter cold has certainly moved in, and part of me doesn’t remember if it ever left. Today I am not complaining though because I do not have to leave my house if I don’t want to. School was called off last night and I am more than a little thankful for one more day off! I think as a teacher, I may be more excited for school to be called off than the kids! I feel a little pathetic as I watch the news and stare longingly at my phone waiting for the school to call so I can hear the automated voice tell me the good news… School is closed for the day!!
I have to admit though, the anticipation and idea of a snow day always is much better than it seems to play out. When I wake up, usually not much later than my normal work day, I start making my mental checklist. “I should do laundry, oh and those dishes… I could do those today, maybe I can get a head start on grocery shopping, I need to work out, and I should catch up on some paper work for school too,” I think to myself as I pull myself out of bed. By the time the day has concluded, I feel just as exhausted as I do on a work day. Then, without fail, I think about adding kids into the mix and sing praises to all of you stay-at-home moms out there! At the end of the day, I crash into bed and think about where my “relaxing” snow day has gone.
January typically is not my favorite month… mainly because of the weather. However there is one redeeming quality. I love the motivation that people have to change and work for a better version of themselves. I enjoy watching the resolution adds and think that this new found momentum that people have is inspiring. This week as the typical January resolution revolution continued, I heard a talk on a radio show about sticking to your resolutions and one word really stuck with me.
For some reason when I heard this, I had to stop. Intentional. What does it mean to be intentional? Why is intentionality so important? I thought about this and reflected on my life and the goals that I have for myself. There is nothing in life that I have accomplished without being intentional about it.
There have been times in my life that life has gotten the best of me. I did not accomplish what I set out to accomplish. But now when I look back, I realize that in most of those times I took the role of a victim. I allowed things to happen to me. I blamed others or outside circumstances for my situation. I was not intentional.
As I struggle to to balance all the roles that I take on, as I want to do the best I can in everything I do but fail constantly, it comes down to being intentional with every moment that I have. When I sit down to read or focus on centering myself, and my mind starts running in a hundred different directions; I need to be intentional about carving out time to rest.
This year, as I embark on a year of blogging, I am excited for the opportunity to reflect and for the chance to grow. However, as I focus on what I want for myself, for my family, and for my job… the one word that I want to describe me this year is intentional.
Today, it was natural for me to focus on what needed to be done around the house. It was natural for me to want to start a million different projects at once, but it is also natural for me to get to the end of the day and feel worn down, tired, and physically, emotionally, and spiritually drained because I let the day run me down. Today, I ran the day. I took time for myself to blog and do quiet time. I accomplished everything I needed to accomplish, but I did it with a renewed spirit and a centered heart. Today I was intentional about what I wanted. I was intentional about focusing my mind and I completed my tasks with a new attitude. It is all about being intentional. Without that, all we do is stand still.